|Garden Phlox in my little garden.|
One year. It's been a year since I posted here. Oh, I think I knew I'd probably be back at some point, but I really did not know when. Lately, I've been drawn back here to reminisce, and with the suggestion of a sweet friend (xoxo Beth) decided the one year anniversary of my departure would be a nice time to say hello again.
When I ceased blogging, I was in need of some reassessment of my life. I was holding on too tightly and thus held myself to way too many self-imposed expectations. I can happily say that over this past year, I've been able to let go of much of that. I feel so much more peace in my heart and life. I turned 50 in March and feel I've turned yet another corner. I loved my 40's, as it was a decade of so much self discovery, but I am looking forward to my 50's as being even more honest and peaceful. My 50's will be about the living of this life with pure authenticity. Forgiving myself more easily, not holding on to disappointment in others, and feeling a freedom in my heart.
Although I've been in touch with people in other ways, I've missed the intimacy of my blog and the ability to sit here and type from my heart, and not just compose a few sentences for a status update. I've missed the creativity it kindled in me to want to grab the camera more often and feel the joy in sharing my world with others in a more fulfilling way. I no longer see this as a chore and as something I feel compelled to do every single day. It's a much healthier relationship for me now. I feel peace and joy in my soul and am ready to continue writing about my Journey Through Grace. Hello again world.