Today is my 49th birthday. Happy birthday to me.
Over the past five plus years that I've had this blog, I've pretty much posted each and every day. It's become a part of my daily routine, and even on days when I thought I had nothing to say, once I sat down here, there was always something to share. At least I've felt I had something to share anyway. From my love of the birds in my own backyard, to how my faith has sustained and carried me through some really tough times, to my love of music... I've openly and honestly shared it all.
And yet, lately I've been at an impasse. I've begun to question why I do this and more so, why I feel so compelled to do it every single day. Several other bloggers have asked some thought provoking questions lately about why we blog and about what dreams and aspirations we have for our lives and futures. It has really made me stop and reflect. And, I think it's time for me to step away for a while.
At church on Sunday, one of the things mentioned in the sermon was the fact that Lent is almost upon us again. Lent... a wonderful time to be quiet, still, and to reflect on our lives. A time to relinquish some things and examine our lives more fully. A perfect time for me to let this blog go for a few weeks while I hopefully gather some perspective.
I won't lie... it will be hard for me. For those who don't know, this blog has been a lifeline of sorts for me in terms of a social connection to the world. In so many ways, I am very socially isolated in my life with Sam, and so this outlet has been my saving grace on many occasions. I truly love and value so many who come here and who have openly given their love and support back to me.
I hope to be back with a clearer heart and mind about what role blogging plays in my life, and will be looking forward to taking time to simply be quiet for a while. Hopefully, some discovery awaits me. Much love and warm hugs to you all. I raise a birthday toast to me, and also to you... for always being here.
(And yes, hubby made me beautiful in Photoshop... nary a wrinkle on that 49 year old face!)
